Brand new shoes, walking blues

I don’t want to post this picture for two reasons. Number 1: It’s hard to see yourself not happy in your body and not doing anything to change it, and B: because Melissa FORCED ME to do the classic hold the hollywood sign gag. Anyway, I came across this picture of me hiking in the Hollywood Hills this past March last night and said aaaaahhhhhh shit let me put on that exact outfit and see the difference. Also why was I hiking in jeans?

The last full moon of the summer has come and gone and now im checking in and reviewing the summer here for all of the 4 people who read my pile of bullshit. It’s now been 13 weeks since I’ve had the alcohol and 12 weeks since I started walking and paying attention to what I was ingesting food wise. I never had the intention of losing weight, I still don’t have a goal and if you told me 12 weeks ago you’ll be getting up at 7 everyday and walking up to 11 miles before you start the day I would have said fuck off and went back to sleep.

This year has been one of transformation for me. The beginning of the year started off with my marriage ending and now we are starting into Fall hand in hand and better than ever. It wasn’t easy. It has actually been some of the hardest shit I’ve ever had to do. It’s daunting to face your issues and then decide to punch all the issues in the face and break yourself out. I didn’t even realize I was in a slump. I wasn’t progressing as a human I was just doing same old and I guess if I was paying attention to myself it was plainly saying hey dumb fuck, you’re not happy!

So here I am going to therapy and every time I go I think god I have nothing to even talk about and then I leave feeling like I’ve learned something and can’t wait till the next time. Through therapy I’ve started going to yoga which I found out that I love. I’m filled with gratitude and happiness and a new eagerness to see what the next day will bring.

I guess what Im really saying is that life is busy, it’s easy to get caught up just trying to make it through the day but take some time to pay attention to yourself and make sure you’re striving to be your best self. Push forward, make things happen, and everything else will fall into place.