Jesus Christ

What’s so wrong with me? I don’t get it. Even guys that aren’t with me are sleeping with other people. I don’t understand why I feel so shitty about Bill sleeping with another girl when we aren’t even together. It’s like everything I know about love and romantic relationships just flys out the window when I like someone. I know that love is not real and that relationships never last, I know that. Then when someone I like enters in I forget it all. Then when something shitty happens, it’s like oh yeah, this is why I fucking hate everyone already.
Here’s another thing about me, when someone hurts me unintentionally or not, subconsciously (im sure as a defense mechanism) I automatically cut them off from my feelings. It’s the same thing that happend with Chris. He cheated, I flipped a switch. I just took me a year to realize I can’t get over that shit. I just can’t. I automatically feel different about a person. Please to all my friends that do read this blog next time you see me headed down the path of any man pull me back to reality.
C’est La Vie.