somethings on my mind

something is going on lately and i can’t quite place it. I think that’s the reason for my excessive bloggings. i feel restless, i think that’s a good word for it. Im not quite sure what will make it calm down. I keep going back and forth with getting married. Im great at getting engaged, not so great with the follow through. Im not sleeping well because there is something going on in this brain of mine. im happy with my squire, im having a good time with my friends, my ladies are doing good, i love my job, im traveling i just can’t figure out what the hell is missing. my ulcer is returning but damnit why doesn’t it get bad enough for me to start losing weight? that would be sweet.
if anyone might have some insight on what could be missing, let a lady know.