tick tock

I am about to be 30 and all around me are nothing but pregnant ladies and babies. It’s really messing with my mind man. Im in a happy relationship with someone that would love a baby and is already such a good dad to the ladies. I just don’t know. I mean J is in kindergarten already and then I’d have another one starting K in 2014! Does this sound crazy to anyone else?
When i had my other pregnancies even though I was married I felt like I was in it alone and that those kids were just mine. I guess somehow my subconcious already knew. It would be a whole new experience with squire. I don’t know. I mean Im in school for the rest of my life so I think it’s always going to be complicated and there will always be a million reasons not to but still something is tugging away…